Filth and Wisdom

The creators of this blog are Kayla and John.

Kayla is a 19 year old high school graduate who currently works in retail, and John is an unemployed drop-out who has been an intravenous opiate user for three years. John has also been diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, panic attacks and clinical depression.

After a suicide attempt and a brief ending our relationship, we are currently back together.

This blog is a documentary of our lives and the consequences that opiate addiction and mental illness have on our relationship.

19/7/2011 @ 12:56

asked by Anonymous

I used to be on all those medications too... I was on a mood stabilizer, benzos, serequil, and the highest dose of zoloft they can legally prescribe (note: I was a 95 lb female then). I used to stick needles in my arms and let myself bleed, didn't eat, and was extremely suicidal. I was in the mental ward twice. My point of telling you all this is that I never thought I would get better, but things just sort of slowly started working out, and I managed to get off most of my medication (I've been medicated for 7 years and in therapy for 11). I know that your situation is much more intense than mine but it's possible for things to start...just getting easier. I can't explain why or how. I wish you the best and am sending positive thoughts your way.
xoxo

I appreciate the thought but you shouldn’t have bothered. The fact that you got better has nothing to do with my life. Enjoy your recovery and let me enjoy my hell.

-John.