December 2011
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We were thinking about starting this blog up again, but does anyone still care about it???
September 2011
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bruisepristineserene asked: just wondering if you guys ever do opiates together?
August 2011
7 posts
Anonymous asked: Fuck you Kayla if I was John I'd slam opiates by using you for money to pay for them, which he does. You're a Toolaudid, a tool someone uses to support their dilaudid habit.
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To anyone who still cares:
Sorry for the lack of inactivity. John’s kind of abandoned Tumblr (for now anyways) and I’ve just been lazy. There hasn’t been much to say anyways. Things have been going good between us, and he hasn’t been to bad lately.
-Kayla.
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“I’m standing outside of InSite looking in, and Jesus Christ is there with...”
– John sharing his hallucinations with me.
nunnery asked: I really appreciate the fact that you guys like Eugene Hutz, not many people do. Filth and Wisdom was such a great movie.
Just out of curiosity have either of you seen Gogol Bordello live?
Just out of curiosity have either of you seen Gogol Bordello live?
Anonymous asked: If I could somehow prove to you I'm not a cop, would you shoot me up for a fuckton of cash?
I don’t want anyone around me for the next month.
-John.
dddeath-and-decay asked: This is to both of you: What are your favourite songs?
July 2011
99 posts
Anonymous asked: Uh so this is for John. When you have tried to kill yourself, I am assuming that you woke up in a hospital. What was that like? Were you mad when you first woke up? Did you have an IV or anything?
Anonymous asked: Harm reduction question. How far apart on my arm should I space apart my shots? I heard if you shot into the same little hole over and over the clotted blood will break off and go into your bloodstream and possibly get lodged in a small blood vessel leading to heart attack, stroke, or death. So yeah, like how far apart should the spots where I stick in the spike be? And do you move up your arm or...
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Anonymous asked: mumma does drugs. lots of it, weed and zoloft are the only ones i see everyday, sometimes she'll come home with a bag full of prescription drugs sometimes it'll be a box. i've seen her hurt since i was 4. why 4? that was when i became aware of who she was. sometimes i wish mumma would sleep forever. i don't like seeing her in pain. you won't care. i know that. but i wanted...
Anonymous asked: Where in the world are you?
Anonymous asked: do you think you'll ever be happy with your body
Anonymous asked: john, what do you think when kayla expresses concern over your weight
The only saving grace of this morning is that I haven’t gained any weight.
-John.
Anonymous asked: How good is the sex?
Tl;Dr - First World Problems
My appearance is probably the worst and most problematic aspect of my life. This is a morning, like many others, where I spend hours over-analyzing myself in the mirror and wondering what I look like to other people. I don’t know which part of my upbringing made me resent my face so much, but that resentment grows stronger than my addiction with every day.
I remember being very young, and...
Anonymous asked: how often do you have sex?
Anonymous asked: i have something to say to both of you.
John -
I don't know if many people tell you this, but I think you'll get better. It doesn't have to be tomorow, or next month, or even next year, but someday it'll happen. And you and Kayla will be happier than ever. It won't be easy and i know you say you can see yourself using for the rest of your life, but...
John -
I don't know if many people tell you this, but I think you'll get better. It doesn't have to be tomorow, or next month, or even next year, but someday it'll happen. And you and Kayla will be happier than ever. It won't be easy and i know you say you can see yourself using for the rest of your life, but...
Anonymous asked: John and Kayla, do you to want to eventually get married/have kids? (in general, I don't just mean with each other)
Anonymous asked: how do you pay for your drugs?
Anonymous asked: john, how do you think saying you dont see yourself making it through the next month feels to kayla? do you feel bad for all the negativity you force onto her? you think it affects her?
Anonymous asked: How often do you shoot up?
Anonymous asked: kayla, do you think john loves you more than drugs? or the the other way around?
Anonymous asked: kayla, do you wish john would stop using?
Anonymous asked: If Kayla were to become pregnant, how do you think you would deal with it and do you think it would affect your lifestyle in any way?
Anonymous asked: john, what do you want to do for the rest of your life?
Anonymous asked: John, maybe if you didn't paint your nails people wouldn't be associating you with a feminine nature
fuckeatkilldie asked: As lame as this may sound, this is my absolute favorite blog. I admire John's state of mind concerning drug use and life in general and I adore Kayla's support and love for John and everything she says. Not only is this my favorite blog, but you two are my favorite couple. I will continue to read this blog religiously. More power to you both!
Anonymous asked: john - what color was your hair before you dyed it? it looks lovely in the photo you just posted
Anonymous asked: I used to be on all those medications too... I was on a mood stabilizer, benzos, serequil, and the highest dose of zoloft they can legally prescribe (note: I was a 95 lb female then). I used to stick needles in my arms and let myself bleed, didn't eat, and was extremely suicidal. I was in the mental ward twice. My point of telling you all this is that I never thought I would get better, but...
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Don't bother reading this drivel, I'm debating...
I love and hate E at the same time. I took E today to feel closer to Kayla after she took some because it felt like we were on different levels. So we spent the day together on E and had a wonderful experience in which we really bonded and conversed in a close, loving manor. The only thing that sucks about E is that my body doesn’t really like it. I stay high and in the afterglow for hours...
Anonymous asked: do u know how to boot opana ers i cant seem to get these fuckers to dissolve and put in my rig thx
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Anonymous asked: john, do you like babyshambles/the libertines?
Anonymous asked: Post a video of you slamming some opies.
Johnny's Blunder, or how I turned the bathroom...
While dying my hair, I managed to not only paint the bathtub black, but the sink, two bathroom mirrors, everything standing on the sink counter as well as the floor. The only think that remains in pristine condition is the toilet.
I think its pretty self explanatory who wrote this post.
Remember kids, practice dying safety: never dye while sober.
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I feel like a pathetic sack of shit. I’m sitting here watching Johnny Thunders concerts while trying to squeeze enough dope out of my cottons to stay well overnight. I miss my clothes, my guitars and my hair. I miss taking care of my appearance. Something from Mona et Moi, a French film that Thunders starred in, really got to me. In one scene he told the gang of kids who were attempting to...
dddeath-and-decay asked: Do you see a psychiatrist, John? Are you prescribed any medications?
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Anonymous asked: do you guys live together? if not, why not, and who do you live with?
Anonymous asked: You know what annoys me the most, people die everyday and don't even get a choice. You're slowly killing yourself and making this blog telling people what drugs you take etc? Instead of announcing it over tumblr, get some help.
I can’t fucking sleep, so I’ve completely depleted my dilaudid supply and I will end up absolutely fucked tomorrow. I feel like shit, even my drug cocktails wont fucking keep me asleep. I’m out of benzos, out of dope and just completely fucking messed up. I’m a complete fuckup with absolutely nothing to do.
-John.
lalalalalalloveyou asked: my wild guess is that youre sitting on tumblr